Was fun as hell. I haven’t been on tumblr much at all, basically because I haven’t been home much. Went over to my first wife’s house with my second wife and girlfriend until my first wife’s boyfriend showed up. My girlfriend had an extremely cute boy over, which gave me really bad anxiety since I was already self conscious enough to begin with. But it didn’t really matter in a few hours.

Boyfriend came over the next day and walked me home. We just chilled all day. Laying in bed, going for walks, having talks about the most stupidest of things. We played at the park for awhile. I felt like a little kid. I don’t think I ever laughed so much in my life as I did on Sunday. I love him so much, and it makes me hate myself for not being better. He had to remind me not to eat food that day. I felt like a huge disappointment. But he is always quick to distract me from my thoughts.

He wasn’t here to save me from food today, so I ate a LOT.

Lunch:

Goldfish- 80 calories

Dinner:
Dino chicken- 135 calories

After Dinner:

Cookie Dough Ice cream- 110 calories

Cake- 190 calories

Total calorie intake: 515 calories

Fuck, butter has a lot of calories >.<

Saturday:

Toast with butter = 170

Sunday:

Fries = 230

Made up for that ice cream Friday :D

I binged on ice cream and Italian confetti. Making it up for it today.

Going out with friends, shouldn’t be tempted by food.

Boyfriends over right now… shouldn’t be tempted by food.

Maybe I’ll fast today, haha:)